This Is How to Love…

This Is How to Love…

Day 4
Challenge: write from a different perspective – of someone with a conflict

Daddy teaches me to be quiet
That this is how to love
That beyond my brains and beauty
There’s treasure buried deep in my gut
He aims to find it for me
He must be unsuccessful
because he searches every night
and fails just the same
I don’t like it all the time,
But this is how to love
I get older, becoming a whole…

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did you say a prayer…

did you say a prayer…

Day 2
Challenge: Villanelle

Did you say a prayer for the devil today?
Imagine him pacing in the dread of resent
Since the very time he began plotting betray

Pent up with jealousy and familiar malaise
Needing the most forgiveness but I doubt he’d admit
Did you say a prayer for the devil today?

Made to be harvester of sinful souls for decay
Banished to the foul cave of brimstone mixed with sweat
One…

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Elegy

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Day 1
Challenge: Elegy (of you)

Sunken one fathom under the earth
A hollow cast of what she was meant to be
Planted herself as an unfruitful seed
Buried in soil quite muddied with tears
Lie in wait for the growth that will never occur
She me, we are, and I –
I am her.
Be there no purpose, no passion, no love
Then I am all that is wrong in this world
Sorry to say God, You have made a mistake
that I…

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slight talk

Given a talk with my better judgment
Perhaps we would decide that I deserve more
That I could do better, at least a little, if only we cared some
If only in my slumber, the very strands in
The fabric of time would rearrange themselves
to produce a silkier texture
or one that is washed in the same contentment
and familiarity as a security blanket
Collectively we would agree that maybe then
I…

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4/21/14 at 12:33a

I’m looking straight at him, head-on

Draped lazily over the couch, tired from the day

We only have a couple hours but I’ll let him sleep

I’ve been too selfish in our past anyway

He deserves that much of me

When I really want to curl up next to him

and share body heat til his back is sticky-wet

Rub his head and play in his too-long hair

I’ve contemplated it a few times

Actually planned how…

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I’ve moved my writing to jamilakesi.wordpress.com

for anyone who cares

or whatever, nbd

k, bye.

“People aren’t books, I’ve learned.
You can’t bookmark your favorite pieces
to return to whenever you’re feeling lonely;
when the nights get too cold and you
need something familiar to keep you warm,
you can’t reopen their spines and wear
out their pages and call that obsession love.”
— Pavana पवन (via maza-dohta)

(via alexandraelle)

as hard as I try I can’t swallow the solution
can’t break my skin to bleed it all out
can’t get to a trigger to end it in a glorious blast

I wrote from my soul, now there’s nothing else to scribe

St. Louis Art Museum

too angry to talk about it
not angry enough to write about it

twinning